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She runs from one partner to the next. She becomes subserviant in her own existence, from one type of abuse to another. She stops she looks around she finds better things ... but better only compared to an abusive past. She learns to want more, she craves it and needs it. Perseptions change, understandings no longer mean what they once did. It’s a chapter closed, a new book opened. She devours half of it and then stops, that was always the problem ... the devouring. She turns to the pages, and finally sees the words, and the stripes of ink. She learns to see the true colour of the ink and the paper, she begins to see the true colours of

Happy Girl by bgrademovie, literature

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Happy Girl

It wasn’t just her imagination, it wasn’t all in her head. They told her, it was official now. She had thought for awhile that it was simply her slipping further and further into insanity. A mixture of her thoughts not understand the darkness. But it was there, the creature, the monster tearing her up from the inside, making everything seem harder, even the bare need to breathe. But they tell her it’s normal, it’s a reaction. But two years, two years of her ... can she put it down to the darkness. What part of it was her and which was justifiable reaction, understandable reaction to what she didn’t even know wha

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When You Asked Me

I wasn’t when you asked me The idea a fear But now I sit with the taste Bitter and cold The closest to blackness I have gotten since Memory came back I don’t want to remember Any Of the last 26 years Not even you When I think about that I need the blackness more Because That was the one happy And I was wrong So I wasn’t when you asked me I’m not sure what I would say If you were to ask again

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Train Ride

I watch the wind caress the long grass as we painfully, slowly pass by in the failing train. I can sense its struggle but care more about my own inner turmoil than the plight of the train. I don’t worry if we break down entirely, it won’t bother me in the least. It would simply add to a day that I didn’t quite exist in. I watch the grass and envy its caressed blades. There is no air-conditioning in the train - of course not, the train is failing - and I feel the sweat run down the back of my legs like an unexpected period. Every movement feels like a tread under water. We continue to move, slowly but surely toward the intended

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Three White Dresses

There were three of them, three girls all similar in age and all in long white dresses with sleeveless straps. The dresses were slightly different the one from the other but they all looked as though the same person may have made all three of them. We drove past and I turned my head to look at their faces. All smiling, all angels. I could have imagined them. But it was a happy insanity if I did. We drove on, and I thought about those three dresses all day.

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bgrademovie

Jul 12, 2009

FRENCH AND SAUNDERS!!!!!`

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That's right folks I just got back from seeing the comic goddess and her chubby sidekick ;-) hahaha it was seriously the funniest damn thing EVER!!! I'm sure I they tehmselves heard my individual laugh over the whole place. I have the whole aching cheek thing from the inability to stop laughing. And WOW ... I don't care if she's 50+ Jennifer Saunders is one damn fine filly. I mean WHOLLY shit ... she is frickin HOT!!! And most definetly a comic GODDESS in my eyes. It was such an amazing show ... 2 hours of Jennifer and Dawn running around make me laugh harder then I thought possible. I am soooo glad I saw them live and had such a brillian

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bgrademovie

Jul 11, 2009

Calm

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Hi ya'll, well life is suddenly peaceful and calm and filled with new exciting adventures of my own choosing of late ... which feels so nice, refreshing and truly about time :-) Had lunch with one of my gorgeous girls the other day .. far too long since we have done it and it was so wonderful ... got me all inspired to write for me again ... another long overdue neccesity. Adventures showing up everywhere and it's nice to feel like I have a choice in all of them :-) Just thought I'd share, and hope to put some new experimental Neen for Neen stories up soon :-) Hope ya'll are safe and good bgrade

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bgrademovie

Jun 26, 2009

Cursed!!!

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Ok maybe it's the alcohol that is allowing me to laugh about this already but let me tell you the story of a girl who loves technology but manages to destroy it by the mere thought of it. I got a new phone YAYAYAYYAYA and world record time for the Neen .... It's already broken and I'm back trying desperately to get the possessed one to please let me at least be able to use for emergency until I get the NEW one fixed or replaced .... oh "It's a hell-of-a day at sea sir!" And if you know that quote ... you get a cookie hehehe :-)

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this-silent-scream

Jun 19, 2009

Neen!!
You probably don't remember me but here's giving it a shot ^_^ I'm riloffey from WAY back when. Back for another go-round with DA. Moving on from some life shit so I started a new account. Hope we can reconnect!

~Me

bgrademovie

Jun 20, 2009

Hey hon, course I remember you, good to hear from you again

reconnecting is all the rage I hear

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this-silent-scream

Jun 20, 2009

How have you been?
Things have been pretty crazy for me but they are finally starting look up. Picking up the pieces of my life and moving on.
Did you have much success with Nano last year?

bgrademovie

Jun 20, 2009

ahhh no alas, Nano fell by the wayside as my world got turned upside down and I was not surrounded by the support I needed.
Now ... my life is better than it has been in years. I am the happiest I have been and I smile for no reason but that I feel calm.
Things will be up and down as always life is but I'm learning to handle it better

anyway, enough ramble
lol
thanks for adding me

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RaRn-BaRn

May 29, 2009

Thanks for watching me... again.

Hope you like the new stuff

how could I not

Yup, you just can't resist my musk.